Bittersweet Life...

Sunday, August 29, 2004

im back... once again. c.. i told u peeps tt i wont be bloggin tt often these days. so i guess u ppl will miss me rite? awww... hehe. juz kiddin.but if u do, ill love u 4eva! okok.. im crappin alreadi... better get to sth more sensible.

ok, my blog is not as nice as it seems. dun realli like it... but thanks to those who praise ME 4 it. thanks peeps... a math paper was okok.... i was day dreaming lotz durin the paper. didnt like managed to concentrate. guess coz the nite b4 i didnt like slept early. well, wateva. glad the paper was over. waited 4 bro to finish his NP activity... in the mean time, crap ard sir harzelly and hafidz... listen to his iPOD too. yay! thanks again... wat else? oh yeah, gotta update u guys bout the overseas exhibtion i attended. must... so here goes.

it was marvellous. there were a lot of universities setting up their booths. talked to my mum bout goin overseas to study... she kinda agreed juz like tt. cool huh? kinda glad tt ad told me bout the exhibition.. thanks ad. well, back to the pt of my entry. where was i... oh ok. first stop. murdoch uni. the lecturer himself talked to me... gave all the detail. gosh, i tell ya... he really talked with DETAILS. everything... gd actually. then stopped by UNSW and monash. i wanna go monash... awesome i tell ya the uni.. the lecturer frm monash talked to me. he has like these very intense gd lookin eyes.. which kept me interestin in wat he was talkin, although some stuff i didnt really understood. but oh well, he is lecturer. too bad... if it was a student, hah... i guess ill make him tell me about every sch in the uni. hehe... the lecturer frm monash who talked to me was not tt old, and he really made me interested in goin there. i really wanna go monash! at the end of everything, mum told me to pursue studies in s'pore first.. argg! thick lining of cloud settled upon me.. hehe. yeah, kinda sad? angry? dissapointed? frustrated? i dunno... so, it seems tt i dun havta take the foundation studies then. well, takin foundation studies do require lotsa $$, but it for gd use rite? im gonna study and do well... yes i will. ok, maybe if i cant go there like next yr, they gotta send me there 4 uni. I MUST GO! get tt? im goin berserk... coz the moment i stepped into the exhibition hall, the feeling of independance and freedom surrounded me. there was this feeling of desperation to go over to aus... somehow, it made me to really do well. i really do. so dearest frens of mine, do encourage me aitez? hehe.... once again, monash, wait 4 my arrival k...

i dunno wat else to blog abt. ok let me now release my tots over the week. to this fren of mine, u noe who u are, plz decide carefully wat u gonna do with ur relationship with ur love one, wateva u call him. im really worried when u first came across a fite with him. i was afraid of seeing u frail off in ur studies... allowin the pressure of a relationship setting in u. i really dunno how or wat to say stuff, but i hope u can get wat i wanna get across. u should noe urself. u should noe wat's ur limit, how far u can go-for now. im in no position to say this, coz i've never been in a relationship and i kinda like dunno bout this stuff tt u goin thru. if u really are serious bout this, so be it. all i gotta say, be careful. he mite be nice and sweet and caring and all. but, a lil misunderstanding can perish everything. all the best to this fren of mine. hope u noe wat u are doin. for wat im goin to say, hopefully it makes sense. so here goes: love is fragile, and so is ur heart. cherish it while u can, b4 it breaks into pieces and hurt u. use ur instincts to let u onto the rite way... dun onli use ur feelings and words frm him to help u decide. wateva u do, ill be here to support u. dun worry, i will never neglect u in any way. u are my fren, and u'll always be. i am here for u to pour ur sorrows out, i promise to be ur listening ear. all the best.

snapping back to norm... one of my ex schmates called me up, asked me to go back to pri sch, with some other frens. i was like, ok. but not tt really enthu bout it. maybe juz goin out to eat with them or sth lahz.... to any of ex schmates or classmates of mine who are readin this, update me soon on wat's goin on. i really wanna meet up... i think this is da onli time tt we can do it, b4 our intensive studies begins for both prelims and Os. so, i guess ill be hearing frm u peeps soon, rite?

to tassha: u gotta think twice bout me attending classes tt are fun... mane ade. well, appreciate wat u have though... thanks for taggin. take care gal!

thanks to those peeps who tagged my board... appreciate it tons! take care dearies...

tikus....squeakin off...

~u can call me selfish, but all i want is ur love
u can call me hopeless, baby, coz im hopelessly in love
u can call me unperfect, but who's perfect?
tell me wat i gotta do, to prove tt im the onli one 4 u
wat's wrong with being selfish..... ~

Smashed into pieces at 8/29/2004 02:41:00 PM